I lost a friend today

I lost a friend today.

I lost a friend today and it hurts.

And the depth of pain and loss is both a reflection of, and a tribute to, my friend.

Most will write about Gonz's love for others. And this needs to be recorded for few ever made an impact on community as he did. But right now, my loss is more selfish.

For it was Gonz (and I know I will not be the only one to say this) it was Gonz who listened to me. He cared. He was accepting. He reached out time and time again. Even when I avoided … he reached. He loved many and he cared about me. Even more tragic, I don't remember ever telling him of the comfort he gave.

I wish I could tell him how I valued his ear, his voice, and his council. I wish I could see that focus and devotion to God and others once again. And his values and beliefs were that tangible … his body and actions were the physical manifestation of a man committed. Committed to God, committed to others, and committed to me.

The world seems smaller now.

I miss how he use to come home, take off his shoes by the front door, and ask me about my day.

I miss my friend.

Scott Sharp

Sunnyvale, CA